Thursday, June 19, 2008
♥ posted at: @7:51 pm
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Though this sch holiday seemed short..but many things have happen..seemed to have more friends..as in online..and they are all guy?..lolx..just suddenly i can communicate with guys?..weird..long time ever since i really get along well with guys..the last time was Pri 6..after tt don really mix around with guys..



Today was the 5th person to ask me for----.. But..i don think i'm ready for tt..if they noe me better..they wouldnt ask me abt tt..see..i cnt even afford to have much time with them..only on the phone..and nt all the time both party is available..so wat for asking me for tt?.. Weird is..no matter how much i explain to them..all of them still nv give up..erm? ..But we didnt even meet up or know each other much..is there even feelings between us?..i asked them this..and they say yes?? ...lolx! ..but during all of our convers..i was just plainly treating them as friends or some as gd friend..but they gt the wrong idea and feeling..



Maybe tts one of the reason i'm afraid to communicate with guys? ..I'm just afraid tt they will get the wrong info and.... Me myself don even understand much abt guys..and end up hurting them..i couldnt bring myself to accept them no matter how much feeling is there..theres a few more factor tt stop me from accepting them..probably :



-I lost trust in guys
-No faith in relationship
-no self-esteem
-Cnt afford much time with them
-Lost focus on studies
-Somehow felt tt I may nt meet their expectation
-I don like horney guys..and it appears tt all are..
-Cnt accept their past..



I just prefer all of them to remain as my friend like b4..it may be better than being a couple..But some even say don mind waiting for a few more years??..

Haiish..my mind is in a mess..now all i wan is concentrate on my studies..i don wanna have any guys in my mind..I just wanna have a good guy friend..but nt in any relationship at the moment

Of course i do wan someone there to care, understand me and oso share prob tgt..but the prob is tt i don have much time to spend with them and i'm sure which guy wanna have a gf tt cnt be there when they need her..or cnt meet her often and spend time with him..

Just hope theres someone there to assist me..i really dunnoe wat to do..

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